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Thursday, July 15th, 2004
1:04 am	Hey hey hey, James' is back on top. WinterOfBlood: Do so, with XXXXX (because, even if this person won't talk to me anymore, I still like eir) you always do. She told me herself. I hate that. I used to be borderline, and I got through it, I never used it as an excuse. And you people who complain, whine, and think you will never rid yourself of it without medication are a horrible example to everyone with some type of mental disorder. Grow up. If you're in college, then find a better excuse for your pathetic life, rather than some disease of the mind which comes from a science you supposedly do not even have faith in. You are a hypocritical, condesending fool. Leave Candace be, she deserves better...someone who doesn't use excuses, and accepts faults and short comings, like myself. Goodbye. Okay, so this choad's posting shows something that is absolutely hilarious, and is a great example to something I think is just great in individuals. A few days ago, I was walking through town, and I saw a car with a bumper sticker that said "This car is protected from the rapture". Hypocrisy is everywhere, and it seems to always be the self-righteous assholes that are the most guilty of it. For example, this individual that had the bumper sticker in question is a hypocrite, for it says in the bible, specificially in Proverbs 16:18 Pride [goeth] before destruction, and an haughty spirit before a fall. Thus, the car will be protected from the rapture, but not the person driving it. Anyways, this WinterOfBlood (now, is that just an extremely emo or extremely death metal name? It seems like it could be pretty hardcore, but I'm thinking that more of a sweater-weeper resides behind the s/n), just wouldn't leave me alone tonight. I was honestly getting some decent work on the compilation, and this asshole just would not leave me be. What I've quoted up above is the last thing ey said to me before going invisible, and it just shows how haughty and condescending this kid was in trying to figure me out. Oh well, it shows that even the most annoying gadflies can provide an overworked kid with a laugh. O, and WinterofBlood - hope you are reading this, absolutely loved our talk - its not every day that I get someone as bullheaded and stubborn as I usually am. Love and hearts, WinterofBlood <3! We should go see Bright Eyes together and maybe cuddle in bed while watching Waiting For Guffman and eating Ben and Jerry's. OMGWTF, LOLLERSKATES! Current Mood: crazy (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, July 11th, 2004
5:23 pm	Life sucks, and then you die. Well, its true. Everyone hates me. Joe hates me. Grabbed me by the shirt and yelled at me for about 30 minutes these last two days. Waiting for him to come over drunk and break a window or stab our tires out or something. Alicia hasn't gotten in touch with me for us hanging out, which we were supposed to do all day. I'm so fucking lonely, I really wish the tears would just come. Candace hates me for something that I don't really remember saying. I mean, really hates me. As in, stab a knife in me hates me. Its really sad. She was really cool, and I guess I lost her as a friend. Lancaster doesn't have much of anything for me anymore, and neither does AIM. I wish i could have a bright spot to this post, but life really fucking sucks right now. If I yell at anyone on AIM or whatever, I'm sorry. Not like anyone reads this drek, anyways. (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, February 24th, 2004
12:24 am	Do do do So, I'm here in my room and am reading about Augustus, and I'm slowly going insane. On the plus side, I think I'm actually losing a few pounds (read my previous posts), and people are liking the non-piglet James. This weekend, I went out to a frat, and a grrlina actually chatted me up... we had a few drinking games, and man, ey was so beautiful it wasn't even funny. Totally "dream weaver" in the background, man. The bad thing is about that is that ey is a member of the cutest-average-sorority on campus, a cheerleader, and is beautiful (like I said). It is so much more than lust - ey is just so down-to-earth, its not funny. ;) And, while I'm still not the belle of the ball in the queer depauw community, I'm getting to be good friends with some awesome people. Again, the people I hang with put off this vibe - I think I've finally grown out of that predatorial lust and just see the inner beauty of people. DePauw has some amazingly beautiful people when you actually can talk to them, instead of being in the hustle and bustle of trying to find a fuck-toy every weekend (something that a lot of DPU, including the GLBT scene, is notorious for). You know who you are, and you rock! :D I feel bad too - there are two individuals that really want to start a relationship with me, but I just honestly don't have the feelings that they have for me. I wish I was courageous enough to tell them the truth, but I have to hide behind mindless platitudes until they leave my presence. One of them I truly love - not in the significant other sense, but in a sibling type of way. Whenever I'm with eir, I just have fun, no pressures of relationship sucking the fun away - and I'm sure that if we did go out, things would just become unbearable. The second person is my ex, and I've tried to make it known time and time again that I really want eir to be my friend, instead of anything more. Ey came over a few weeks ago, and I really felt like I might have been leading eir on. :( I just wish I could say to both of them: "I love you. Being your friend is one of the only things that constantly makes me happy", but the latter individual just can't accept that. Aside from my crushes at DePauw, I have a number of other random lovely people that just make my day online. Those are, in no particular order: Cubbie, Denny, Candace, Danielle, Jamez, and Elizabeth. <3's go out to all of you, and I promise that some year, some place, we will meet (or meet again, my studly Jamez!) I am so embarrassed disclosing this information, but it really does a lot to stem the depression that I've been feeling more and more lately. Love ya all! (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Saturday, February 21st, 2004
10:05 pm	W00t! So, um, I'm happy. Two people have asked if I have lost weight, and while it is probably just because I shaved off my facial growths, it still makes me feel good. Now, I need to be off, see if I can't find a cool shirt for the party tonight, and maybe get some hot luvvvvv. Guys/girls/m2f/f2m/genderqueer/intersexed people, call me at 6914. I'll be here :D Current Mood: giddy Current Music: Hilary Duff - Come Clean (Comment on this)
Friday, February 20th, 2004
9:23 pm	Help Muh! Hey all you magnificent people, I'm study right now. My hair looks like ass, and I have no clue what to do with it. It's a cop-out, but what do you think would look good on yours truly? I'm thinking about dying it purple, but I would rather have it cut first so I don't look goofy... AND shaggy. is how I look now. So, my LJ minions, what shall I do? :) Current Mood: thirsty Current Music: Felix Da Housecat - Marine Mood (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, February 11th, 2004
1:20 am	Well, I'm tired as hell tonight, and probably will crash here in a minute, but since I'm not feeling this latin work, I'm just going to update this. Today: Had some curried chicken, met up with Mayghin, went to work and class, etc. Also got out of my Elements of Political Theory class, due to my befuddled professor being off on time. However, the time of my night was when my buddy Allen came over and we talked for a while! Rock! I love having a few friends at DePauw. Thanks y'all, along with those other people that I talk to online (Jenni, Denny, Jamez, Jess), for making this life a little less unbearable. See ya guyz tomorrow! LOLLERSKATES! OMGWTF?!?! (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, February 5th, 2004
3:38 am	Okay, so Denny did this a few weeks ago, but I'd like to keep it going. Here is a list of 30 mp3s of mine, chosen at random by winamp. If you can, run through a jumbled list and write down the first 30 that come up. Its funny to see what some people have! : 1. Relient K - Nancy Drew 2. Enrique Iglesias - Hero (Spanish) 3. Frank Zappa - Panty Rap 4. Blind Guardian - Blood Tears 5. Radio Birdman - 1.94 6. The Minutemen - Just Another Soldier 7. Greg Palast - Richard Pearle 8. Anti-Flag - You Can Kill the Protester, but You Can't Kill the Protest 9. Defiance, Ohio - This Time, This Year 10. Mr. Bones - Why The Children 11. Squirtgun - Super-Unglued 12. Esham - Oldie But Goodie 13. Descendents - Suburban Home 14. Murray Head - One Night in Bangkok 15. Mekons - Bob Hope and Charity 16. Converge - In Harms Way 17. NoFX - All of Me 18. Elvis Costello - Accidents Will Happen 19. Stars of 54 - If You Could Read My Mind 20. Bad Religion - Faith Alone 21. Fabolous - Oops Oh My 22. The Methadones - Say Goodbye to Your Generation 23. The Real MacKenzies - Mainland 24. Nas - Got Yourself a Gun 25. Dogwood - Stairway to Sin 26. Megadeth - Crush 'Em 27. Backstreet Boys - Who Do You Love 28. They Might Be Giants - Cage and Aquarium 29. Paradise Lost - I Despair 30. Hydro - Aborigination Current Music: Hydro - aborigination (Comment on this)
Thursday, January 29th, 2004
3:28 pm	Okay, so since everyone likes my insane meanderings, here the third in about three days. -I moved into Warne Hall. 306. My number is 765-658-6914 . -Call Me! -I've still got to get some stuff moved in my room, but come over. :D Love you all! (Comment on this)
Tuesday, January 27th, 2004
11:24 pm	So here we are,and this is the last day as a frat member. I'm going to be moving into Werne Hall tomorrow, and it was an incredible time in the frat. Sure, I had the leak in my room that utterly destroyed the carpet in my room, as well as the continual power outages and construction, but I had one or two good nights at the old house. Maybe if the frat didn't suck so much money for me, or maybe if there were so many meetings and things to do every night, but to each their own. I am one of the few people that have been able to go and live life both as a Greek and Independent student, and I really wouldn't change what had happened. Well, I probably would, but its almost expected to go and say that to maintain pleasantries. God I'm fucking tired, and to think this was supposed to be the easiest class I've had. Still single, still lonely as fuck. 9 months and running. Thanks to all the kick-ass people who messaged me last night. Hugs and kisses go out to all, and hope that everything goes well tomorrow. Current Mood: tired (3 Comments |Comment on this)
12:16 am	Lets keep my buddies in mind, kiddos. Due to privacy and not knowing if they want me to say their names out in public, I'm just going to tell you what I learned tonight. One of my buddies, someone I've known since 2001 and started becoming better friends with this summer, is dying of cancer. Ey's got 6 months left [what eir's doctor said that ey has to live]. I don't know, don't want to know where it is located at, and I just hope that ey doesn't die. If its a certain thing, though, I hope that ey gets all the shit that ey wants to do done before ey passes on. UPDATE: The kids a fucker. Heh. Was just kidding. Another of my friends, who I have known since 9th grade, lost ey's dad last week, told me tonight that eir's mom might have two types of cancer, ey's significant other left eir, and that ey was fired. My third friend's grandmother is awfully sick. I'm not sure with what, but I don't feel like it is proper to ask eir. To top it off, my grandmother (on my dad's side) was admitted to the hospital for water retention. She's back home now, losing some weight, but I'm still worrying about her. So, life is shitty for my buddies. I don't think any of them read this journal, but my heart's going out to thrm. I was going to update neufutur.com now, but I'm a little depressed. Get in touch, any of you. Later. Current Mood: depressed (Comment on this)
Thursday, November 13th, 2003
11:09 pm	This Day Farkin Sucks! Cponfused and Unhappy. Denny said that, and I just have to believe it. Life has sucked so muych ass lately and I've all but given up on any hope of finding a s.o. - hell, even someone to fuck! Honestly, things are going okay, I guess, but even that simple fact doesnt change much of anything. I learned today that being in the frat has another shitty part to it : I lost about three hundred bucks of my financial aid award due to an modification in University policy regarding Greeks. I need to get in touch with the housing office. I really am getting more and more of a knot in my stomach over thinking that I got an email about the housing lottery which would have been deleted when my Outlook shat itself to death. I really fucking dread even walking to the frat now. I just really want to say fuck it and just sleep in the GRRL room for the rest of the semester. This shit is just absurd. What the fuck was I thinking when I joined this place? United DePauw's exec went to NGLTF Creating Change in South Beach, Florida. I was really pissed off that I wasnt asked to go, but chances are that they asked for people who wanted to go the week I didnt go to UD. I actually calmed myself down - a rare thing - and we had a good meeting detailing what they learned at the conference. I'm going to need to look at "Critical Disability Theory", which combats the bimodal gender system and gender assignment to intersexed individuals. The second I started to walk home, I got really depressed, something that usually happens now about this time of night. Blah. Really wish Denny would get on - I'm so fucking lonely and this coldness doesnt help shit. Current Mood: depressed Current Music: Wakefield - Give Me A Reason (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, August 27th, 2003
3:45 am	08.27.2003 Hey all you motherfuckers! This be James up in this bitch, andI started to get a taste of what I had to do last semester (but didn't) at DePauw. I had to go to a WGRE (radio astation) and a DePauw meeting (newspaper), go and take pictures of a number of people for a photo-op piece, and go through three CDs that I had burnt for United DePauw (GLBT group) and fix a ton of errorts in the mp3-burnt CDs. Oh, a minor fiasco happened between me and the family tonight. My grandmother is deathly ill and probably won't make it much longer. I have absolutely no clue on how to cope with things of that nature, so I expressed my frustration in regards to my mother asking me to come hoe for the funeral with a line of reasoning that made her cry even more. Feeling like shit and after being vitually berated by my sister, I went to a DePauw gathering and met a very cool girl that gave me her s/n. Nothing will come of it, but she is hella nice. Also, at the WGRE meeting, they had the free box out and I found some amazing discs (these are almost all still shrinkwrapped): New Morcheeba New Poisonthewell New Bitch and Animal New Outfield EP New DeeJay KaySlay and some other punky-looking bands' disc! How, tomorrow is the first day of school, so this list might be a little truncated: Bring recipt to Srimati Respond to FMLA nationals Respond to OUTfront Review Steve Zultansky/Terra Infirma/The Business Send Jim Testa some reviews of the packs of stuff he's sent. Send 1905 $6 for their shirt.Put up Smoke Detector. Stupid Slingshot organizer doesnt come out till mid-October. Blah. (Comment on this)
Tuesday, August 26th, 2003
1:30 am	8.26.2003 Jebus! Its been a long time since I've been able to go and update anything online. So people know, I didn't fall in a hole or anything. The last week I was working about one-third of the time at Arby's, and on Saturday night (the night before I left), my grandmother was about a step from dying. We aren't sure, but the idea with that was that she might have been given a medicine that was too strong for her. Everything turned out okay, and I got all my shit moved into the frat house. I really think this will be an okay experience, but there are enough bad things about it that I am currently planning on withdrawing from the house for the second semester and trying to find a resident assistant position in campus. If not, I'll just move back into the dorms. I don't really know what happened last year. Everything was so different that I look back and I really want to know if it was a dream or real. Anyways, enough about the old shit! The new freshness is that I received a lot of stuff from Jersey Beat, and have been reading and reviewing a lot of it. I'll make sure to link everything from the main site. Before I crash tonight, I'll be updating neufutur.com with a few new rants and a zine review. Its only 12:30 and I'm already fucking tired, so that shit may have to wait. Other stuff I have to get done: Install 600 Fonts on the Computer Update Site Go to library and get Sandy to site WS form Go to Financial Aid and turn in Loan shit. Fill out DPU planner / look for Slingshot planner Review Steve Zultanasky Anyways, I'll revise this more later. Have fun! (Comment on this)
Friday, August 22nd, 2003
3:12 am	Friday Morning! Polaris = Pete+Pete! Okay, I've already lost my way with this laundry list thing - maybe I will update this just with the goings on of my life. I've got no clue now. Its 3 AM Friday, and I've got work at noon, packing all throughout the weekend (leaving Saturday), and tons of art shit still to get done. First, Thursday morning (last night), I actually went and did some painting on my army jacket : and it looked pretty decent, so I finished it up with another coat of paint tonight. I'll need to find some fabric paint sealer at the store - my sister swears it exists, but she may be full of shit. More info on that later. Tonight was paper-making night. Or, the trial run for paper-making. Reading through the instructions over and over (purchasing some unflavored gelatin in a serving about 500x what I need), Addy (my sister) and I made a few pieces of paper. The paper is currently chilling underneath about 20 pounds of weight, so I'll see if it looks halfway decent and post pictures of it tomorrow night. Tomorrows plans are uncertain. I'd like to get some website stuff done, but chances are that I'll be called by Barton or Shayne and just go drinkin... again. Get in touch. Current Mood: exhausted Current Music: Polaris! (Comment on this)
Tuesday, August 19th, 2003
3:38 am	08.19.2003 Okay, before I go to bed kiddos, I'm going to post here nice and longly about what I have to do before and after work (I work 5-10 again!). Review Diatribe #2 Review 28 Pages Lovingly Bound With Twine #7 E-mail Aaron Cynic that I've Reviewed Diatribe Read Terra Infirma #3 and possibly review it? Finish up Arnold / Top Ten Page for NF #10 Request Information for Various Grad Programs (http://www.mentalstirrings.com/subjects/gradlatin.htm) Buy Sandals Deposit Arby's Check Work on Serena's Advertisement. Review Steve Zultansky's Disc. (Comment on this)
Monday, August 18th, 2003
4:20 pm	Today : 08.18.2003 Depending on how much time I have, I will start to have a number of these posts (perhaps even a daily or bidaily thing. These posts will be to describe what I plan on doing on neufutur.com, as well as be sort of a reminded to myself that I need to catch up on things. For now/after work tonight (I work at Arby's. Working night shift; 5-10) : Review Johnny Franchise Disc Review Diatribe #2 Check Sitemeter for demographics. Fix review page (ADB Reviews) Read Terra Infirma #3 and possibly review it? Finish up Arnold / Top Ten Page for NF #10 E-mail Jessica about FMLA. Download fonts from DaFont.com (Starting at #51/Top 100) Check for booklists from DePauw E-mail Candace about addy. Alright, break! (Comment on this)
Saturday, August 2nd, 2003
10:33 pm	Lancaster Zinester looking for ride. Hey, this is James from NeuFutur and InterStitial magazines. I am near but not in Columbus, specifically holding it down in Lancaster, Ohio. I don't know if anyone will be going up that way, but I am looking for a ride from Central Ohio to Detroit and back for the Midwest Zine Fest.The festival is August 15th through the 17th, and I can provide money, gas, food , and witty banter to anyone who might be able to pick me up. If you think you can, e-mail me back at editor@neufutur.com . Thanks! (Comment on this)
Wednesday, July 30th, 2003
11:13 pm	Looking for a ride to Midwest Zine Fest! Hey, this is James from NeuFutur and InterStitial. I am looking for a ride from Central Ohio to Detroit and back for the Midwest Zine Fest. I can provide money, gas, a crash space, food , and witty banter to anyone who might be able to pick me up. If you think you can, e-mail me back at editor@neufutur.com . Thanks! (Comment on this)
Monday, May 19th, 2003
5:46 am	Texas On My Mind Out! Hey Everybody! I know people have thought that I have fallen off the face of the earth, but with the mid-month marker past me, I have released Texas On My Mind. Inspired by one of my best friends (Stephie). The zine is 1/4th size, 12 pages, and it takes the lyrics of Pat Green's "Texas on My Mind" and puts them to a louder accompaniment with background pictures. If you want a copy of it, send a first-class stamp or .50C to me. I still take trades, but I don't want to trade my little zine for a work that is full sized and 100 pages. As usual, my current address in the summer is : James McQuiston 308 South Maple St Lancaster, OH 43130 If I owe you a trade, I will send you at least this issue and a copy of InterStitial #1, which should be coming out very soon. Get in touch with me. (Comment on this)
Thursday, January 23rd, 2003
2:36 am	NeuFutur #9 Out! Hey Everybody! Its blue! I've busted myself for the last few nights, and the magnum opus that is #9 of NeuFutur is complete! It is a total of 56 pages. -32 1/2 pages. -16 1/8 pages. -8 1/4 pages. Thats right, A zine and two supplements. This issue is the most personal of all of the magazines that I've did, and i just know you will like it. Pieces in this magazine include the Car Crash I was in, being heckled at Superamerica, Coming back to my house and noticing the differences in the town, as well as a piece by my mother and another mini-comic by my sister. For those people who are not a big fan of reviews, I've made sure to remove them from the main part of the magazine and place them in their own supplement, so those people who may not want to have to re-focus their energies a number of times. I hope you like it. You can check out old work and selected pieces from the magazine at http://www.neufutur.com Post a response to me if you have positive things to say about old issues, or if you want to get/trade for a copy. I am completely up for all sorts of trade and actually like those more than getting money in the mail. If anyone has read past issues of my magazine, I would ask you to do two things, seemingly opposite : first, if you've read the magazine, to post what you thought about it, and if you have read the magazine, make your mind a tabula rasa for this issue, please. All issues will be $1 PPD, or I will take a equivalent trade (zine, clothing, etc) You can also pick up issues of NeuFutur at : Sassafras Sexahkitty and Undecided Distros. (Comment on this)